Aww . I miss him.. Mre than 8 hrs we din txt each other ;( anw , baby hope u are ok ;)

I know that sometimes im not good at handle things .. I feel bad that i owes make my love unhPpy .. I feel bad that when someone compare me with others gals .. Im not perfect , so do them..I know i cant give u what she gave u before .. I know i cant be that speacial ..

Sometimes i really thought to myself i don deserve love frm people , cos im sux just like this .. I don deserve boy Either even a bf .. I seriously don deserve all this

I don do whatever u guys Asked me To .. I disobey orders . I don listen .. I phobia that i may get hurt ! I listen too much bfre and i get hurt at the end ..

I tried to change but at the end he * my ex left me and go for othr gal that is mre shitty than me ..

So tell me . WHAT CAN I DO ! I LISTEN I GET HURT I DON LISTEN I GET LOST OF SOMETHNG .


Life is so unfair to me , i just want a loyal bf . Thee one that love me and so do i , the one that will never let go of my hand no matter what the situation is .. No matter what happen .. No matter what the big and small thing we argue .. Cos i noe, no matter what happen i will forgive .. Cos i cant bear to see the one that i love walk away ,.

I really did appreciate you more than any other guy that ever walk in and out of my life .. Byht at some point ... Just ...

A simple word, yet complicating,very easy to pronounce but billions of times more difficult to understand. It consists of ups and downs, days and nights but still sometimes you find yourself stuck in between somewhere. A different kind of melancholy consisting of many kinds of feelings...full opportunities to success nonetheless it brings disappointing moments as well. A small word of four alphabets which helps human to either taste happiness or accept sour sorrows..always put you in test and difficult situations but at the end leave a moral or a sense of understanding. Some people are fed up of it because they don't realize its importance as its gifted, and the rest have learn how to smile at it, so that it smiles back. It brings people in dilemma and confusing moments and leave them to either overcome it successfully or feel left-out. The choice is always yours...."Life", a simple word, yet complicating....

I have never thought of having a speacial bonding with someone again after the massive heart broken for the past few years..

But i still will being a secretive bitch which dont really tell what am i thinking :( cos i noe i
Can solve it myself and i do believe i can find a way to solve it .. Everything also have SOLUTION!

Baby is leaving soon and i dont have much time to be with him again .. No more pampering , tolerate feel anymore.. I never really did try a fucking long distance realtionship before but i will try my best to make it through or any possible way that i can .. Im not a half way give up people . I will achieve the thing that i want to ..baby , pls be tolerate and patient with my temper .. I may be fierce and not understanding at time .. But i wish u could stand me and not let me go just like that .. This is the little test for both of us :) i love you

With much of dissapointment , i realize there will be no more guys can hold me tight enuf . Some small arguement , some testing they can just let you go like that .. EASILY ~! Not much to complaint cos im not good as the other i not qualified to play or involve in love .. I have no confident, i have no trust , im not deserve to be love by ppl too :)

Well, i have not much to ask for .. I just wish 2012 be good to me . Love ? Might as well put aside cos im really scared and blind already.. I See far far already.. School? Oh god , pls pray for me that i can get through :(

Broken There are days when it will seem like your whole world is falling apart and you will prefer to hide underneath a blanket rather than face the destruction that is taking place around you. These will be the days when the feeling of loneliness finally wins its battle against you and you will surrender yourself to tears and anger of what seems like an hopeless situation. And you’ll want to break down without really knowing what you’re breaking down about, other than fact of finally feeling the pain of all the scars you obtained throughout life’s challenges. Without really knowing where to begin to cure the emotional turmoil caused by the weight of this world, you fall to your knees with to intent to get back up again. It will be during these days were you will feel broken. But it’s important to remember that even though something breaks, it’s isn’t impossible to fix again. It’s important to remember that life is filled with these imperfect moments that seems like dead ends and too difficult to get through, but it’s worth not giving up to see our world rebuilt into something beautiful again. It’s as if these imperfections in life are needed to realize how spectacular and beautiful everything is when things are finally going right. As if life is destroys our world and knocks us down to make room for something better for us to see when we get back up again.